DaiIy Dose | Seven

Photo, obsession:

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Totoro socks. <3 Nuf said. 



Skinny dark denim, flora shirt, red canvas pumps. Going out tonight! 

Favorite MeaI: 

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American orange from sweet roomie. 


Yesterday, 15 minute hard run, 60 minute sweat fest strength!

Started here: 17 Minute FuII Body

Then here: 25 Minutes FuII Body with StabiIity BaII (I stop at 25 because I usuaIIy am not ready to cooI down after this and the remaining 10 minutes are basicaIIy cooI down).

IastIy15 Minute StabiIity BaII FuII Body

Ended with 10 pikes on the baII, puIses and squeezes for the inner thighs with the baII, hamstring stretching, then sIeep.

Today, 28 minutes between a 9 and 9:30 pace (not exactIy sure..somewhere around there, give or take).

WouId Iike to do arms and upper body today: With Weights Withought Weights

ProbabIy tonight! 

Drawing, favorite book:




“Most of the things we need to be most fully alive never come in busyness. They grow in rest.”
 “Unless and until we rest in God, we will never risk for God.”
“Mindset of the man too busy: I am too busy BEING God to become LIKE God.”
― (aII above) Mark Buchanan, The Holy Wild: Trusting in the Character of God

“8 Depart from me, all you workers of evil,
    for the Lord has heard the sound of my weeping.
The Lord has heard my plea;
    the Lord accepts my prayer.
10 All my enemies shall be ashamed and greatly troubled;
    they shall turn back and be put to shame in a moment.” -PsaIm 6:8-10…this was my anchor verse aII through my chiIdhood. 

Promise of God:

New Identity.

I am not my sin, my past, my famiIy, my boyfriend, my ob, nothing at aII. My worth and vaIue come from how He sees me now, through His eyes.

Song, “Your GIory”

” and the heartbeat of my Iife is to worship in Your Iight, Your gIory is so beautifuI”.

Gratitude: SimpIe purpose of gIorifying God. AII eIse fades in Iight of this human purpose reaIized. 



He is so beautiful.

Everything that is beauty came from Him. What Joy I have in meditating on His goodness. Meditating on aII of the ways He Ioves me.

He gives so abundantIy, so richIy. Life is made simpIe when I remember my purpose for existence is to worship Him. That is the over arching theme of humanity. Stop getting Lost in the nitty gritty and Lift your gaze, be free from the trappings of aII this fiIth the worId tries to Iure you with and be hoIy (1 Peter). Because, you are hoIy, set apart and precious (Isaiah 48). 

The more time you choose to give over to distractions (money, materialism, status, comfort, discomfort, seIf pity) the Iess you’re feeding your spirit. By indulgence in futile earthy things, you’re numbing yourself to God and His Spirit in you. You cannot serve two masters. You’re either contributing or subtracting to your Spiritual growth and health by your thoughts actions and words. Or feeding your earthIy desires by continuing to go to them for comfort and purpose.

You want what you feed. So starve that which is starving you and stop subjecting yourself to garbage in this worId.

You are set apart, now BE set apart! Turn off (or throw out) the TV, netfIx, anything staining your heart or mind with diIusions of this worId.

The number you are to Him, the happier satan is. He wants you confused and discouraged and fearful.

God and aII His glory. Focus on him. AII the things you Iove most stem from Him. Every Good and perfect gift comes from Him (James 1:17).


Just Be.

Thank Him for AII that you Iove.

Star there.

Daiy Dose| Five

** I do NOT own this cover photo! **

*Photos in this post were taken with the iPad, so they aren’t quite as good. . . *


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Tearing clouds into little tufts. Scattered tufts.

Photo, after dark:

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I took these one year ago when I first arrived here. Its been a year!!!


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Favorite Meal:

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Breakfast on the roof with Sara and osh. Grain free pancakes, greenies, bananas and blue berries. 

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Took care of that sucker!

Work Out:

60 minutes of the bike, moderate/high speed, no incline.

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Found a patch of Sunflowers! :D Cheeriest things. 

Drawing, best friend: 

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This is joon. Ins’t she cute? I’ve become very fond of her. :)

Word: heliophile – a person who loves the sun


Any concern too small to be turned into a prayer is too small to be made into a burden.” Corrie ten Boom


11 But let all who take refuge in you rejoice;
    let them ever sing for joy,
and spread your protection over them,
    that those who love your name may exult in you.
12 For you bless the righteous, O Lord;
    you cover him with favor as with a shield. – Psalm 5:11-12

(^^ rich promise of God ^^)

Promise of God:

But now thus says the Lord,
he who created you, O Jacob,
    he who formed you, O Israel:
“Fear not, for I have redeemed you;
    I have called you by name, you are mine.
When you pass through the waters, I will be with you;
    and through the rivers, they shall not overwhelm you;
when you walk through fire you shall not be burned,
    and the flame shall not consume you.
For I am the Lord your God,
    the Holy One of Israel, your Savior.
I give Egypt as your ransom,
    Cush and Seba in exchange for you.
Because you are precious in my eyes,
    and honored, and I love you,
I give men in return for you,
    peoples in exchange for your life.
Fear not, for I am with you;
    I will bring your offspring from the east,
    and from the west I will gather you.
I will say to the north, Give up,
    and to the south, Do not withhold;
bring my sons from afar
    and my daughters from the end of the earth,
everyone who is called by my name,
    whom I created for my glory,
    whom I formed and made…

16 Thus says the Lord,
    who makes a way in the sea,
    a path in the mighty waters,
17 who brings forth chariot and horse,
    army and warrior;
they lie down, they cannot rise,
    they are extinguished, quenched like a wick:
18 “Remember not the former things,
    nor consider the things of old.
19 Behold, I am doing a new thing;
    now it springs forth, do you not perceive it?
I will make a way in the wilderness
    and rivers in the desert.
20 The wild beasts will honor me,
    the jackals and the ostriches,
for I give water in the wilderness,
    rivers in the desert,
to give drink to my chosen people,
21     the people whom I formed for myself
that they might declare my praise…

25 “I, I am he
    who blots out your transgressions for my own sake,
    and I will not remember your sins…”

Read the whole chapter.. I ust highlighted the portions about newness. 

Promise of God: He makes us new. For His glory. Ezekiel 36 is all about Him creating, forgiving and healing us not so that we’re happy and comfortable, but for His name’s sake! We get caught up too often in this delusion that we’re both deserve and should remain in a constant state of ease and happiness. He leads us in the path of righteousness for HIS NAME’S SAKE (psam 23). For His fame. For His reputation. Because, when one is truly brought low, and then truly saved or redeemed, undeservedly, the only words which should escape the tongue and teeth are praise, adoration and complete humble surrender. And love.

We sin reckless, we break, we bow, He heals, redeems and forgives. He makes new. We praise. God glorified.

Song: Beautiful Things

You make me new, You are making me New.”

Gratitude: New! I am New new new new.

French Word: 


“Come, everyone who thirsts, come to the waters; and he who has no money, come buy and eat!”

The beginnings of Isaiah 55, verse 1. 


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Two today!


Stuck on this word “New”.

It resinates. It sounds inspiring. I speak it, and it tastes so sweet on the tongue.

My spirit is aIive to God. I am new. I have a new nature.

I sin, in my rotting fIesh I sin. I continue to break his heart with my wicked thoughts, deeds and words.

But Iess and Iess. Because I am new. I have sowing become un-attracted to sin as a whoIe, and becoming more aware of sin in my Iife. It bothers me. This pride thing, it is so sneaky. Poisonous.

The goaI isn’t to be perfect, but to have  a heart consistent in-tuned to, seeking and Ioveing God. God works mightily and mysteriously through our obedience. Through prayer, and everyday-mamma-prayer and praise. The mind stayed on Him, then the perfect peace invading the heart (Isaiah 26:3).

We have to cooperate if we want to reap the fruit of the work already accomplished. 

You are new.

“17 Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation.[a] The old has passed away; behold, the new has come.” 2 Corinthians 5:17

You are new.

Romans 5, 6, 7 and 8.

Now be new.

(Totally copied and pasted from BibIe Gateway…)

Colossians 3English Standard Version (ESV)

Put On the New Self

If then you have been raised with Christ, seek the things that are above, where Christ is, seated at the right hand of God. Set your minds on things that are above, not on things that are on earth. For you have died, and your life is hidden with Christ in God.When Christ who is your[a] life appears, then you also will appear with him in glory.

Put to death therefore what is earthly in you:[b] sexual immorality, impurity, passion, evil desire, and covetousness, which is idolatry. On account of these the wrath of God is coming.[c] In these you too once walked, when you were living in them. But now you must put them all away: anger, wrath, malice, slander, and obscene talk from your mouth.Do not lie to one another, seeing that you have put off the old self[d] with its practices10 and have put on the new self, which is being renewed in knowledge after the image ofits creator. 11 Here there is not Greek and Jew, circumcised and uncircumcised, barbarian, Scythian, slave,[e] free; but Christ is all, and in all.

12 Put on then, as God’s chosen ones, holy and beloved, compassionate hearts, kindness,humility, meekness, and patience, 13 bearing with one another and, if one has a complaint against another, forgiving each other; as the Lord has forgiven you, so you also must forgive. 14 And above all these put on love, which binds everything together in perfect harmony. 15 And let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, to which indeed you were called in one body. And be thankful. 16 Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly, teaching and admonishing one another in all wisdom, singing psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, with thankfulness in your hearts to God. 17 And whatever you do, in word or deed, do everything in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him.”

Be new.

“For freedom Christ has set us free; stand firm therefore, and do not submit again to the yoke of slavery.” -Galatians 5:1

Be new. 

“..22 to put off your old self,[a] which belongs to your former manner of life and is corrupt through deceitful desires, 23 and to be renewed in the spirit of your minds, 24 and to put on the new self, created after the likeness of God in true righteousness and holiness.” Ephesians 4:22-24

Be new.

“…for at one time you were darkness, but now you are light in the Lord. Walk as children of light (for the fruit of light is found in all that is good and right and true), 10 and try to discern what is pleasing to the Lord. 11 Take no part in the unfruitful works of darkness, but instead expose them.” Ephesians 5:8-11

Be new.

Drive out the rusty nais of  bad habits which are corrupting your spirit; sin causing deafness and numbness to God and His Spirit in you. drive them out with new habits. With new thoughts.

“2 Do not be conformed to this world,[a] but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect.”- Romans 12:2

Your hammer is prayer. The re-focuser. Prayer centers your mind on Him and His ways and His thoughts and His attributes. Set your mind on things above.

If then you have been raised with Christ, seek the things that are above, where Christ is, seated at the right hand of God. Set your minds on things that are above, not on things that are on earth. For you have died, and your life is hidden with Christ in God.When Christ who is your[a] life appears, then you also will appear with him in glory.” Colossians 3:1-4

And when your centered and focused on Him, thats when the peace invades.

“You Keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on You.” Isaiah 26:3.

Daily Dose | Four

Photo, Something Green:

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Favorite meaL: glorious salad!

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Workout: Hard run this morning, 26 minutes: run 2 minutes run, 1 minute sprint. Coo down, wak home.

Drawing (or painting…), Favorite pace: 


Quaintness, lusterous emerald vast. Stillness embodied, in feathers and poise. Rice fields

Word, scop


“Faith is deliberate confidence in the character of God whose ways you may not understand at the time.” –Oswald Chambers

Psam and Proverb:

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Promise of God: 

15 Do not love the world or the things in the world. If anyone loves the world, the love of the Father is not in him. 16 For all that is in the world—the desires of the flesh and the desires of the eyes and pride of life[a]—is not from the Father but is from the world. 17 Andthe world is passing away along with its desires, but whoever does the will of God abides forever.

Song, O How Marvelous 

“When with the ransomed in glory
His face I at last shall see,
’Twill be my joy through the ages
To sing of His love for me.”

Gratitude: Rain kisses, dripping, soaked through with love. How Marvelous! 

French Word, baiser – kiss.

Memorization: Chipping away at that poem of old (Pslam 139), even still. lamentations 3, too. Incubate, meditate truth. 

Sunset and Sunrise, both very cloudy. The whole week, push gray cushe the sky. I don’t mind. Never do. But, the dawning of and setting of that fiery orb are hidden deep, beyond that which a lense can capture.


I want to  learn what He wants to teach me. Not what I think I need to learn. Organic growth is rea and  richest. Unforced and rea. He knows best that which I need to know. Trust that.“Faith is deliberate confidence in the character of God…”. Confidence, peace. Trust.

Hoy Sprit, teach me. Iead me compIeteIy. .

Daily Dose | Three

Sunrise wasn’t very magnificent. Somber and heavy sky all day long. I like grumpy skies.

Photo, clouds!

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This photo was taken last autumn.. not today. 

Outfit: No picture ( I forgot! ). Long sleeved Navy blue top, dark denim skinny jeans, fake toms. Hair was awesome today! *High five humidity!* springy glorious curls galor. <3

Favorite Meal, Lunch with Josh:

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Sorta looked something like that…to busy staring in his darling eyes and forgot to snap a shot of my plate!


Intense 30 minute Stability Ball

Own mat routine:
Leg pulses with a ball (10 straight, 10 turned out, 10 bent)
10 second squeeze with a ball (x3)
Straight Leg bridge both feet on Ball (20 second hold)
Straight leg bridge one foot on the ball (10 seconds each foot)
10 Pikes
Plank Challenge (20 seconds)
Hand stand (20 seconds)
Total sweat fest. Kept slipping off my ball because of all of the sweat my body was producing! :D YAY!
Drawing, favorite food:
Current obsession…Berries berries berries. 
Word, Impinge
“All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given us.” -J.R.R. Tolkien
Psalm and Proverb: 
Promise of God: 

“You keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on You.” Isaiah 26:3


“Finally Brothers, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things. What you have learned and received and hear and seen in me–practice these things, and the God of peace will be with you.” Philippians 4:8-9


“Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of you mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect.” Romans 12:2

Just kidding…this is lastly (but not leastly)

“Do not love the world or the things in the world. If anyone loves the world, the love of the Father is not in him. For all that is in the world–the desires on the flesh, and the desires of the eyes and the pride of life–is not from the Father but is from the world. And the world is passing away along with its desires, but whoever does the will of God abides forever.” 1 John 2:15-17

Transformation of peace in the heart begins and is maintained by thought habits of Truth in the mind. It is obedience to take full responsibility of our thoughts. Locking eyes on His eyes, and seeking to know His thoughts. Philippians verse I shared gives us a great start. Matthew 5:3-12 also gives us plain and clean insight to that which our Savior holds dear.

This promise of peace is cooperative. We must obey.

“Oh that you had paid attention to my commandments! Then your peace would have been like a river, and your righteousness like the waves of the sea…” Isaiah 48:18

Song: You Make Me Brave

“…Champion of Heaven You made a way for all to enter in.”

Gratitude: pools of sweat on my mat; evidence of life. Heart thumping, lungs drinking humid water air, life life life.

French Word: Vie ~ life

Memorization: Same as yesterday. Ponder, reflect, incubating truth for deep roots.

Sunset: none today. I slept through it!

Thought: Everything is worship. 


“And whatever you do, in word or deed, do everything in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through Him.” Colossians 3:17


“So, whether you eat or drink, or whatever you do, do all to the glory of God.” 1 Corinthians 10:31

How can I eat to glorify God? How can folding laundry be an act of worship?

Vacuuming as praise to my Savior?

“Bondservants, obey in everything those who are your earthy masters, not by way of eye-service, as people-pleasers, but with sincerity of heart, fearing the Lord. Whatever you do, work heartily, as for the Lord and not for man, knowing that from the Lord you will receive the inheritance as your reward. You are serving the Lord Christ.” Colossians 3:23

Excellence in the mundane is the most exquisite worship.

“Bondservants, obey your earthy masters with fear and trembling, with a sincere heart, as you would Christ, not by the way of eye-service, as people-pleasers, but as bondservants of Christ, doing the will of God from the heart, rendering service with a good will as to the Lord and not to man, knowing that whatever good anyone does, this he will receive back from the Lord, whether he is a bondservant or is free.” Ephesians 6:5-8

Secret obedience, quiet worship, is noticed and praised.

“But when you give to the needy, do not let your right hand know what your left hand is doing, so that your giving may be in secret. And your father who sees in secret will reward you.” Matthew 6:4

“…and your Father who sees in secret will reward you.” Matthew 6:18

Worship is about glorifying God. With our lives. With all that I am, in word, deed and thought. Especially thoughts. Because your mind is the fertile soil from which habits and beliefs are sown. Thought seeds establish roots and grow and become us.

If you want to live obediently and righteously, you have to begin by thinking obediently and righteously.

Especially in the quiet, secret moments of our days, when human eyes are turned away.

Attitude of worship says, in everything, whatever it may be, “God, I love you enough that I desire to vacuum this rug as if it were laying in the den of You very own living room.”

Let us not forget…

“…every beast of the field is mine, the cattle on a thousand hills.” Psalm 50:10

Everything we have is only because he gives.

The worship-full heart says “Father, I am truly thankful, full or thanks, for this rug, juice stained, torn, beaten worn run that I get the privilege to clean. To scrub the grubbiness of life lived off. A home to lay it in. A family to fill the home, noise and grime and peanut butter smudges. Thank you for all of these gifts.”

Joy for the little soles prints, clay and earth and footsteps.

Its simple.

Everything can be worship.

“The one who offers thanksgiving as his sacrifice glorifies me; to one who orders his way rightly I will show the salvation of God!” Psalm 51:23


p.s. My favorite animal form yesterday’s drawing task.

Daily Dose | Two.

^^ Sunrise July 22nd 2015 ^^

Photo, What I wore:


Swim day.. yay!

Outfit: Blue

PicMonkey Collage

Favorite Meal: 


Bowl of frozen berries topped with banana “ice cream”, drizzled with coconut milk. Yes. 

Workout: Swam 50 minutes moderate/high intensity. Light intensity 15 with Lydia and Andrea (walk two minutes, jog one minute), then 16 minute run on my own.

Plank Challenge continued, Sleepy time yoga routine once I’m done typing up my bloggy.

Drawing, my favorite animal: It was a disaster. Two attempts. No no!

Word: mirage


Not only is all of your affliction momentary, not only is all of your affliction light in comparison to eternity and the glory there, but all of it is totally meaningful. Every millisecond of your pain form the fallen nature or the fallen man, every millisecond of your misery in the path of obedience is producing a peculiar glory you will get because of that. I don’t care if it was cancer or criticism. I don’t care if it was slander or sickness. It wasn’t meaningless. It’s doing something! Its not meaningless. Of course you can’t see what its doing. Don’t look to what is seen. When your mom dies, when your kid dies, when you’ve got cancer at forty, when a car careens into the sidewalk and takes her out, don’t say “Its meaningless!” its not. its working for you an eternal weight of glory. Therefore, therefore, do not lose heart. But takes these truths and day by day focus on them. Preach them to yourself every morning. Get alone with God and preach His word into your mind until your heart sings with confidence that you are new and cared for. – John Piper

Proverb and Promise of God:

The Value of Wisdom

My son, if you receive my words
    and treasure up my commandments with you,
making your ear attentive to wisdom
    and inclining your heart to understanding;
yes, if you call out for insight
    and raise your voice for understanding,
if you seek it like silver
    and search for it as for hidden treasures,
then you will understand the fear of the Lord
    and find the knowledge of God.
For the Lord gives wisdom;
    from his mouth come knowledge and understanding;
he stores up sound wisdom for the upright;
    he is a shield to those who walk in integrity,
guarding the paths of justice
    and watching over the way of his saints.
Then you will understand righteousness and justice
    and equity, every good path;
10 for wisdom will come into your heart,
    and knowledge will be pleasant to your soul;
11 discretion will watch over you,
    understanding will guard you. . . 

Song: “Though You Slay Me”

Gratitude: Healing hunger, humbling hunger, holy hunger; fasting~ the making of new.

French Word: Tu me plais ~ I like you.

Another Promise of God: 

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Proverbs 2:7 repeated… 

Memorizing: Lamentations 3:21-33, Psalm 139

Adding on; Lam. 3:26…”It is good that one should wait quietly for the salvation of the Lord…”

Adding on; Psalm 139:7-10 “Where shall I go for you spirit? Or where shall I flee from your presence? If I ascend to the heavens you are there! if i make my bead in Sheol you are there! If I take the wings of the morning and dwell on the uttermost parts of the sea, even there Your hand shall lead me, and your right hand shall hold me. “

Sunset: It was full of beauty. 



The water wasn’t hot anymore. I had heard it ring, background noise, cluttered sound behind the words my eyes and ears were dissecting in my mind to make since of it all. Flat dry cold yet living breathing active Words. I drank it anyway. Fresh mint spring from the rooftop “garden” attempts. Weak, grassy watery taste. I drank anyway.

Today water rang and I heard and responded quick. Steam spilling from my open mug. If I wore glasses they’d be thick with steam. Hot heat kissing my face and my lip grip the rim of my speckled mug.

This hotter water, high heat, brought the loveliest flavor out of the leaves. The smell infused my nostrils, which enhanced the experience all together. Warm between my fingers.

Words of James echo clean and immediate :

Count it all joy, my brothers,[b] when you meet trials of various kinds, for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness. And let steadfastness have its full effect, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing.

James 1:2-4

Little scald scar on the ceiling of my teeth home.

Chastening because He loves me so much that he doesn’t want any part of this world in me.

11 My son, do not despise the Lord‘s discipline
    or be weary of his reproof,
12 for the Lord reproves him whom he loves,
    as a father the son in whom he delights. 

Proverbs 3:11-12

Love language of hardships. Holy hardships with a reward of immeasurable, eternal, glorious value.

Also, one could argue that the truest essence of a person is extracted under “heat” or pressure or trials. A person’s nature is revealed clean and obvious to any eye passing or any hear hearing.

Daily Does | One.

^^ Sunrise, July 21, 2015 ^^

Photo, Self Portrait:


Outfit: Pink.

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Favorite Meal: Steaming bowl of Chicken Pho (GF, not vegan…) in company of icy cucumber spears and vibrant orange carrots sweet.

Workout: Today I rode moderate/high intensity on the bike around my favorite “mountain” bike trial for 40 minutes. Immediately after, 15 minute cool down with Lydia doing a nice 2 minute walk, 1 minute run. Strength later (simple today):

Plank Challenge Core Challenge Quick Stability Ball WorkOut Favorite Arms #1 Favorite Arms #2

Drawing, Myself:




“We don’t see the material world for what it is meant to be: as a means to communion with God.” -A.V. One Thousand Gifts”

Psalm and Proverb:

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Proverbs 1:33, Psalm 1 (specifically verse 1-3).

Song“Holy Spirit” by Kari Jobe

Gratitude: Tiny tomato packed with earth and sun; homegrown.

French Word: Douce~sweet, gentle. Soft.

Promise of God:

Lamentations 3:25

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Goodness promised to those who wait and seek for Him. 

Memorizing: Lamentations 3:21-33, Psalm 139

Lamentation 3:21-25

“But this I bring to mind, and therefore I have hope:

The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases; his mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. ‘The Lord is my portion,’ says my soul, ‘therefore I will hope in him’. The Lord is good to those who wait for him, to the soul who seeks him.

Psalm 139:1-6

“Oh Lord You have searched me and known me! You know when I sit down and when I rise up; you discern my thoughts from afar. You search out my path and my laying down and are acquainted with all my ways. even before a word is on my tongue, behold, O Lord, you know it all together. You hem me in behind and before, and lay your hand upon me. Such knowledge is too wonderful for me; it is high; I cannot attain it.”


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Thought: If I could remember, if only I could remember, the urgency every Christian should hold in their heart. Christ is coming, soon and quickly. Swift as a thief, will I be “caught” obeying? Or willful opposition? My choice.

Utterance of lips cannot convey the truest need I, human and dart and soil and sin, have to be in deep God-communion every day. Every day experience Him and His goodness.

That is the ultimate rich and real: this constant communion with the Richest and Realest of all.

My creator.

Scattered thoughts about fullness.

Crepe-like petals, so fragile, somehow can hold the weight of red, passion’s mascot, without tearing. Its a wonder to me. Little vibrances hidden, or not so hidden, in nature.

Glitter scattered across velvet night.

Meadows robed in floral gowns.

Watercolor pallet spilled, leaking clouds pool greens of every tone and shade grey and white on those fresh spring mornings. Flecks of pink and sprays of purple yawning awake pushing back the covers of soil and sleep.

Solar blood orange and gold, pulp of the sun bleeding through the earth as he bows his head to rest. Red swirls into pink, then pink fades to that whisper purple, then that marvelous regal black dotted with silver.

I used to imagine that the twinkling ones were happiest, laughter echoing in the endless expanse of space.


Morning waking over sleepy Songtan July 11th, 2015

Rich and Real.

I look for these things. Endlessly crave to be full. Ferociously seeking to satisfy deep wants.

Breathless, time won’t stop, so I can’t stop! Constant rush, society racing to have the most. Earthly, worldly most. I forget, lose sight of His heart and what is eternal. I join the marathon.


Practicing beingLiving simply. Unhurried. Adding fullness and depth to my life by slowing down my mind and finishing thoughts. Praying heart prayers, things that actually matter to me instead of reciting a long lists of wants and don’t wants.

I truly endlessly crave this–all this. My blog “Relish Living”. Savor life.

I’m trying to extract everything this world has to offer. Panicked and racing from one exciting thing to the next trying to cram as much busy-ness into one day as humanly possibly. Competing always to have the most joy as possible. The most happiness that life will allow. Savor because I know it won’t last, motivated by fear, life mortal and earthly. so I scrounge, scraping every ounce of goodness that I can find. But what happens?

I scrape, but I am dry still.

Endlessly empty so it would seem.

Savor, hoard, tightest, whitest fists I’ve ever seen at the ends of my own two arms.


Savor and rush cannot co-exsist. I didn’t know that until recently.


Laying on an uneven sand dune under the ample shade of the umbrella he rented for us, I rest. Eyes closed, he asks “Do you hear that? The kids playing? The waves, the sounds?” I smile because that was exactly what I was doing. Listening.

Shadow casts tinting his back an ashy tone. Too tall, feet very much off the mat. Catch his eyes brimming with boyish delight, I blush. Permanently pink. Not because of the sun. This moment I capture. Hold; swell with thanks. I’m full.


Emptiness has been a chronic state for me in my life.

My heart has been void of thanks. Completely lacking of gratitude.

My favorite lesson I’ve learned in this past year has been this:

The deeper your gratitude, the deeper your joy. 

Fullness. Joy and Fullness, Synonyms.

Gratitude can be had everywhere. Joy can be had everywhere.

Being glad for everything isn’t so cheeky and Pollyanna-y as I believe it is often dismissed to be. I look into the world, in my circle of friends and see a strange association. Anger, negativity, sarcasm = maturity, power and strength.

Those of us who dare to be uplifting or positive are so quickly smashed under the weight of these criticisms and demeaning remarks. Too often I break under the chastening. I quiet right up. I zip my mouth and bite my tongue in fear of being belittled by “Big” people.

It is ridiculous.

Scripture is all about setting your mind on things above and not the things of this world. Take a look:

Romans 12:2

Philippians 4:8-9

1 Peter 4:1

Colossians 3:2

1 Thessalonians 5:8

Ephesians 6:17

2 Corinthians 10:5-6

Isaiah 26:3

1 John 2:15-17

Matthew 7:21-23 is a passage I think about very often.

“Not everyone who says to me, ‘Lord, Lord,’ will enter the kingdom of heaven, but the one who does the will of my Father who is in heaven. On that day many will say to me, ‘Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in your names, and cast out demons in your name, and do many mighty works in your name?’ And then will I declare to them, ‘I never knew you; depart from me, you workers of lawlessness.’ “

That passage motivates the heck out of me to seek after His heart. To “know” Him truly. Know what is important to Him. This heart/relationship knowledge is what its talking about. In the greek, the word is Ginosko. It isn’t a list of rules and tasks. This knowledge is intimate. Being in love with God and caring about that things He cares about. He cares about eternal things. Fruitful lives here on earth (John 15). Attributing to that fruitfulness through obedience.

Rituals = pulseless religion.

Relationship = Vivacious life.

A facet of this, His heart, is that fullness, this joy be mine. On His terms. Through chastening. Through trials. testing of my faith and strengthening of my endurance. My greater good rests on the other side of persecution. Always. His love language is chasten. He wants me to last, so he polishes, strengthens. Aiming to reflect himself in me to a bleeding earth and broken people.

Hebrews 12:3-13

Proverbs 3:11

James 1:2-12

1 Peter 1:6-7

John 10:10

Obedience produces abundance.





That is what is important. No matter what angry, bitter, hurt people say or do or how they treat me. I must never lose sight of God’s heart, and his heart is painted in the sunset. So I trek to gaze at that passion soaked orb. So rich. But yet only a glimpse of His richness.


Graciously lent to me by a fellow sunset chaser friend, Kaylin. 

I try to absorbe. I sit until dark as bleeds through the orange. I sit again and wonder at the galaxies. I seem to never tire from pondering these days.

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This one facet of His heart, “Set your mind on my mind”. It becomes a part of me. My doing becomes a part of me. Like in James, “But the one who looks into the perfect law, the law of liberty, and perseveres, being no hearer who forgets but a doer who acts, he will be blessed in his doing.” (James 1:25).

The more I do the less I forget.



1. To consider something deeply and thoroughly. To Mediate.

2. To weigh carefully in the mind; to consider thoughtfully.


Sacred communion with Creator, Father, Shepherd, Lover of my soul.

The heart and head aligner.

The soul and spirit refocuser.


The only true response to God; gratitude. 

The realization that you are nothing without Him. Have nothing without him.

Love expressed, exclaimed.

These practices help me keep my thoughts in obedience to Christ.

Captured thoughts will settle and grow. Cocoon. Incubate. Bloom, become. Whether Godly or worldly, what you feed will grow.

“Do not be deceived: God is not mocked, for whatever one sows, that will he also reap. For the one who sows to his own flesh will from the flesh reap corruption, but the one who sows to the Spirit will from the Spirit reap eternal life. And let us not grow weary of doing good, for in due season we will reap, if we do not give up.” Galatians 6:7-9

The joy here, the fullness here I’ve found, is in remembering Who’s I am and living passionate obedience. World changing obedience. John 13:34-35

“A new commandment I give to you, that you love one another. Just as I have loved you, you also are to love one another. By this all people will know that you’re my disciples, if you love one another.”

Life abundant, fullness I spent years recklessly chasing is hidden in obedience.

“And this is his commandment, that we believe in the name of of his Son Jesus Christ and love one another, just as hr has commanded us. Whoever keeps his commandments abides in God, and God in him. And by this we know that he abides in us, the SPirit whom he has given us.” 1 John 3:23-24

No more chasing. No more obsessions with beauty and skinny and fame and self love. it is all empty always.

Breakfast dishes need to be washed.

Thank you father for giving me a sink, soap, a home, a spoon and bowl. 

Laundry is spinning wildly, soon to chime that oh too familiar song of completion.

Thank you Father for the stains on my dress, the life spilled on my clothes, the sweat leaked, the joy had. The body to dress. 

He has a very very busy next few weeks before he leaves for a whole month. Time is scarce and solitude will be ample.

Thank you so deeply form the very darkest secret place in my heart that I have the privilege and blessing to have someone to miss. 

“Put on then, as God’s chosen ones, holy and beloved, compassionate heats, kindness, humility, meekness and patience, bearing with one another and, if one has a complaint against another, forgiving each other; as the Lord has forgiven you, so you also must forgive. And above all these put on love, which binds everything together in perfect harmony. And be thankful. Let the peace of Christ dwell in you richly, teaching and admonishing one another in all wisdom, singing psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, with thankfulness in our hearts to God. And whatever you do, in word or deed, do everything in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him”

SO if you want joy to invade your life like an avalanche in spring crumbling to bits every tree of doubt, dissatisfaction or self-pity, be FULL OF THANKS.

“The one who offers thanksgiving as his sacrifice glorifies me; to one who orders his way rightly I will show the salvation of God!” Psalm 50:13

Salvation is the ultimate abundance.

Abundance begins now:

“The thief comes only to kill steal and destroy. I came that they may have life and have it abundantly.” John 10:10

Find fullness, satisfaction, gratefulness exactly where you are, because

“This world is passing away, along with its desires, but whoever does the will of God abides forever.” 1John 2:17

Don’t miss this–this joy here and now and forever after with Him.

Forever joy begins today. Forsake the world and cling to what is good (Romans 12:9-21).

Peace and joy will endlessly follow.

“Oh that you had paid attention to my commandments! Then your peace would have been like a river, and your righteousness like the waves of the sea…” Isaiah 48:18

“Therefore we must pay much closer attention to what we have heard, lest we drift away from it. ” Hebrews 2:1

May peace and joy endlessly follow as you trust and obey the Shepherd, Gardener, tender of your soul.



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